My tattoo

Ok so here goes. I'll give yous a quick run through of my tattoo, because so many people ask me that I may as well send them to this page.

I designed the concept about a year and a half ago: "I can" in black, with the apostrophe and the "t" written in white ink. If the white ink doesn't look like a scar enough, I'm getting it cut into my skin.  The idea behind is is that I've gotten rid of the negativity. I still have the scars, but once I stop being pessimistic, everything is possible.
It only became more important for me to get it once my friend committed suicide. It reminds me that the easy way out is often actually the hardest, maybe not for me, but for everyone else.

It will also by in my own hand writing, not only because I've always pictured it like that, but also, I like the idea that it is my idea, not a quote, not a robot that typed it out. I want the "I" to be written in that distinct way that I make mine, because it is my struggles, mine.

It took me a long time to get the placement right. It's such an original idea (no, dearest brother, I didn't get it from Pinterest. I'm sure someone else thought of it before me, but I actually did think of it myself, all on my own), I didn't want it on my wrist, and it's too small to get it on my hip, which I have a weird obssession with (my second tattoo will definitely be there). Same with my rib cage, and I hate the shoulder placement.
My chest has always been a sensitive spot for me, but it became even more so when a friend of mine tried to take advantage of me: he held me by the throat, his hand stretching to my chest. I therefore figured my chest was a good idea. The collar bone really attracted me, but it's too high to hide it easily. I had to figure out where to put it, and right between my breasts was like the worst idea ever.
It will therefore be right above my left breast, not as a sexualized idea, but rather because I can hide it easily if I chose to, but I can wear a low-cut but not slutty shirt and show it off.
I've picked the left side because the left side of the brain is the logical hemisphere, and seeing as I am the most un-emotional person I know, and that logic got me over every struggle I've experienced, it just wouldn't make sense to put it on the right. I'm also right handed, so if I were to write it on myself, it would have to be on the left.


There, you have it. So to all of you saying that it's a stupid idea, I know. I know to you, when I say it out loud, it's cheesy and I may regret it in some years. That's ok. It's in an area that I can hide it if I chose to, and it's a reminder. It's supposed to be there in the moments when I want no one to be there with me.
So just wait till I get it before shooting me a disbelieving look.
I know I can't wait.